That’s how long Carlsbad made it before pulling one of his disappearing acts.
It’s been about 2-3 days since I last heard from him. I could be mad, upset, disappointed, sad, any number of emotions. But I’m not. I’m also not going to take this as some opportunity to run into some other dudes arms.
Over the last couple of years, I’ve learned a lot about myself and what I want in a partner. It’s become less and less about having someone to be intimate with and more about having a friend. Someone who would offer me unconditional love and support and I would do the same. At the end of the day, all I’m seeking is friendship.
I haven’t given up on my search, nor have I given up hope. I’m just reminded that I can’t force something to happen, it’ll happen when it’s meant to and I’m totally okay with that.
To Carlsbad, thank you for the experience. I wish you well in all you do and I hope you find what you’re looking for.
To the Universe, thank you for another opportunity for my own personal growth.